Life without a schedule
I know the root cause to my more than extremely eccentric sleeping habits, it's cause I'm simply too free and I have nothing to occupy myself with, be it some form of companionship, a specific objective, a goal etc.
Without a schedule, I see my body clock fucking up so hard it's just plain demoralizing. I become a person who shun away from society cause "nobody can understand" . Waking up at 1am realizing your day has started and the next thing you collapse at 12 noon only to find yourself awake at 3:30pm is pretty fucked up. My body officially can't tell the difference between nap and sleep anymore.. In fact sometimes I sleep at 9pm and wake up at 2am to say "fuck".
With all these elements in place, I realize it can be quite terrifying an the thought of this constant solitary life I will be facing .. Shivers
I figured since I'm awake at the worlds weirdest hour every single day with My body clock almost non existent.. The only way is to just do what I feel is the "right" thing. Go out and run in the middle of the night , live life normally for it's probably the most productive thing I can possibly do.
I know I need a schedule, a goal in life which I can see myself possibly reach, an awesome companion, a body clock, a healthy diet etc.
When trying is not good enough.. You just do. Against all odds, against whatever people say about you.. You are the master of your soul. Nobody should tell you what or what not to do with your own life..
